Brain State

My brain state has much improved, cognitively, since the propane poisoning that I've attained in the past six months, in two living situations in BC (BC can be very backwards with housing!), due to not only reiki, Hyperbaric Oxygen at HOC in Victoria, but also due to Brain State technology which I heard about from Annie Hopper and Dr. Cline. Based on this serendipity, I went to Waves of Potential in Victoria (there are also other offices worldwide using Brain State technology, and one can Google for them, but this one was the one I found in Victoria).

Dr. Susan Simpson PhD., a psychologist, is one of few people practising this quantum physics approach using a unique type of neuro biofeedback where the brain essentially listens to itself and heals! One of the practitioners in Kelowna was actually about to reverse major damage in the brain of a man who had severe carbon monoxide poisoning and was almost a vegetable, she said. So, I figured if it could work for him, it could most likely work for me.

Months ago, I visited Susan for an assessment which is basically an EEG of the brain and she showed me several "black" areas which she called "lots of brain damage" but says she meant that my neurons aren't functioning well there --especially the frontal lobe area--and I do have major cognitive problems when I'm reacting to things.

She also showed me how the right hemisphere of my brain was on overdrive compared to the left side (the side providing calmness, rationality and a feeling of spirituality) and that I was usually in Delta state, which is not the kind of state one wants to be in during the day! Basically, I was a blob, and I felt it. Frankly, I wasn't doing much of reiki or anything else as I had no quiet home to do it in or I probably would have been in much better shape!

Susan's confidence had a quality that gave me more assurance than most doctors have done (aside from the great dentist I saw in Toronto who removed a huge, invasive mercury filling without cracking my tooth!).

So, I went for it. I used my year's worth of insurance for psychology to pay for a package deal of just over half a dozen treatments, as psychology wasn't a long-term help in itself for me.

After the first two treatments, I felt somewhat better, but still wondered if I could fix the damage that propane could do. "You know," she quietly told me, with an intensity that shown me she'd seen much in her work, "You will get better, and one day, believe it or not, you will see your illness was a Gift."

Over the next few treatments, my mind did come back, my creativity and drive came back, my sense of self came back, and my access to long term memories stunningly came back.

A couple months later, when I naively lived in one more place I didn't know had propane leaking a month ago--which took me to a much different level where my blood brain barrier was further weakened, causing my MCS sensitivities to become MUCH heightened--I returned to her, this time on my own funds.

I was having severe chest pains, and pain down my left arm, and numb tingling fingers and toes. The gas had done a number on me, so I really didn't care if I spent more money as "you can't take it with you" so they say. You could see the shock in Susan's face: "You look much worse. You have to stop living in bad places. You have those huge dark circles around your eyes again". This time, I wasn't sure I could get better again, but she said anything is possible.

And it's working again. My sense of amnesia falling away. When I get more funds, I'll do some more treatments and one day, I'll feel comletely normal I believe.

In the meantime, I had a dream, just before I saw her again, where I was showing a man paintings I'd done. I actually didn't recall doing them, but showed him them anyways. They looked like child's paintings with different colours splattered on the paper, resemblant of what Susan sees in her scans. Then, at the end, I showed him one of a very realistic brain, which was completely royal blue.

I told Susan about the dream, asking her what that may have meant. Her eyebrows lifted in amazement and then I noticed, on her desk, a "bust" of a blue, plastic brain, the exact one that I had painted. I exclaimed, "That's it!"

Then she showed me her full-colour Waves of Potential brochure, opened it up, and a photo of that same brain model was in there too. "It means a healthy brain, a whole brain, one that's become complete," she said. And to imagine that my Higher Power or subconscious must have been signalling to me, in that beautiful dream, that I was on the right path, gave me hope beyond compare.

Perhaps that's what Susan meant by "the Gift". Or one of them. Sometimes something profound--call it G-d, call it the Divine, call it our Higher Self or pure energy-- breaks through to show us that we're not alone, that we're connected to a larger force and that it's watching over us, trying to guide our intuition. The Gift, in this case, may have been that I have seen this incredible Divine force as a vivid messenger, and it's solidified my belief that we are connected to all, and guided by it, as invisible as it all may sometimes be.

This gift also showed its face less "visibly" in the form of Reiki, and in the remarkable inherent energy that also affects my brain's neuroplasticity through even mindpower--Dynamic Neuro Reconditioning-- showing me that the Divine is more powerful than we can imagine, it is real, and it is on our side. All we need to do is work with it.